My routine was thrown out of whack and I missed posting on Monday. Ah well, I'm here today.
Don't know what to talk about though. I never plan these posts, they happen as they happen. If you couldn't tell by how rambly they usually are.
The week wasn't great, despite my birthday. Although the birthday part was good! It's always nice to spend time with friends. Especially accompanied by nice food!
Most of my days are an unfocused mess, time goes by in a flash and I accomplish nothing at all. When I get to bed at the end of the day I often feel like that can't be right, I just go up a little while ago! But no, a whole day trickled by like sand from my hands. And my mind seems like an endless void. It needs some exercise. Like learning something new. That sounds so overwhelming though. Argh! How do I get out of this?!
I'm a dreamer. And the world hasn't been kind on dreamers lately. I'm a dreamer with nothing to dream about. Head in the clouds, yeah, but when you're actually *in* the clouds all you see is a grey fog.
My collages are - deliberately - colorful, whimsical, happy... dreamy. Cause that's what I want to bring to the world. But I've run out of inspiration to make more.
Should I... should I get that "Artist" label out of the trash I threw it in? Is that what I'm missing after all? I was so sure I needed to get rid of it.
Nah, what I need is to have fun. To try stuff out and experiment and explore possibilities, like I said was my goal for this year. Yeah, guess what, I forgot about that too. Despite the vision board I keep right next to me.
Honestly? Really really honestly? What I need is to NOT go on Youtube. It's a time-sucking problem and I know this damn well. I always let myself fall for the trap of "I just need some background music."
No I don't. Not from Youtube. I have plenty of music to listen to offline.
Ok. Let's see if I get some shit done this week. Let's go!
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