New Year, same old me

I'm having a bit of a crisis. 

Now that I left Instagram, I don't know what to do with myself. I have this urge to try out new places, more independent alternatives. But as I explore to those options I immediately think, do I really want to be here? Is there a point? 

I want to both spread my presence to as many places as possible, but also to focus my energy on just a few key places. I don't know where to go. Outside of the big ones, there isn't much going on. Is it even worth putting energy into it?

Should I get back to Bluesky? I left cause I didn't like it. The character limit annoys me, and I don't even have that much to say, usually. And the vibe there isn't great. Although, to be fair, I didn't put much effort in finding my people. Maybe I should try again? (I'm already feeling the resistance just thinking about it)

Decisions, decisions. 

In other news. Hey! New Year! It's almost like starting a brand new sketchbook! 

I'm not making any resolutions. And I didn't make a vision board yet... Not like I have to, but I made one the past 2 years and I liked it. The problem is, this year, I have no idea what I want to do. Need to think about it some more. It's been hard to focus, to sit down and write down thoughts. I don't know why it's been hard, it just has.

But I can at least write down a loose list of 'want-to-do's. 

I want to play around with pixel art. Get back to streaming. Give YouTube a more serious try. Sculpting using paper and cardboard and stuff like that. Redo my website. Make zines? Maybe? Get back into photography a bit. Make postcards! Cause I need them for Postcrossing, so might as well make my own. Continue creating characters, like I did with the Tealings. I also want to redo some of my Inner Worlds works. And make new ones, of course. Make printables? Make wallpapers. Create digital products like that. Oh, and start drawing again. If I could produce my images from scratch instead of relying on photos that other people provide for free... that would be really nice.

All of that seems like a lot. The website I'll be redoing for sure. The look won't change *too* much, cause I really like it, but I want to add more things and play around. 

Getting back to streaming would also be good to give myself a schedule. I know I'll end up wanting to break free from it, but at least for a while it would do me good.
I'm considering streaming in the morning. Try that out, see if it works for me. 

So far, my plans are *Try Things* and *Play Around*. Maybe my word for this year is Experiment. Or Explore. I like that one more. Explore options. Explore possibilities. Explore new places. Explore old places and rediscover them. Yeah. Explore is the word I'm going with!