Raisca's Ramblings

 I haven't done any digital collages since April. 

When I think back to last year, I see that it was just the same. I did Februllage, failed miserably at keeping up, burned out, did nothing in March, did one artwork in April, and then did nothing else until the summer. 

And this year is going much the same. 

I wonder if it was Februllage burning me out, or if this is just my natural rhythm. Hard to say, cause I never really payed attention before. 

I've always struggled with consistency, with direction. 

If I put myself in a box, I feel cozy at first, but after a little while I start to feel trapped and I grow increasingly more irritated (my brand of anxiety) until I forcefully break free from it. But when I'm free, I lose direction and focus. So I need the box. But I don't want the box. I hate the box!

It's like cats and doors, really. It's not that they want to go to the other side - well, they do, but - they just don't want the door closed. 

I need the possibilities. I might not do anything with them, but I need them there - tangible - just in case. An illusion of choice, maybe. But they're my emotional comfort possibilities. They keep me going.

 

Uh... where was I going with this...? 

So, Raisca, when are you getting back to your digital work and your Inner Worlds?

SOON ^(tm)

No, really. But I have to admit, I've been having a little too much fun making stickers lately. Guys, stickers! I love them!  

I need to take decent pictures of them. And put them up on Ko-fi, as packs. And also Redbubble, as single stickers.