I'm terrible with routines, and yet I need them. I can't have a set schedule for too long, cause it makes me feel trapped, restricted, it starts eating up my motivation and mental energy. So, invariably, I end up breaking free from it. Desperately.
But then I have no schedule at all and I feel lost, adrift in the sea of ideas and possibilities (hey oh, there's a nice tittle/idea *takes notes*) and the longer I'm there, the harder it is to get back to doing something, until I force myself to have a schedule again.
Rinse and repeat. Since ever and forever, this is how I work. Dysfunctionally. It's not great, but I'm used to it. It's just part of who I am. I accept it, embrace it and keep going, letting myself have frustrating periods of doing nothing, without letting the frustration get the better of me. I call these absorption phases. I'm not putting anything out, I'm just taking everything in. The ideas are there in the background, percolating, marinating, or whatever you want to call it.
And what does all that have to do with my streams? Well, from now on I'll be streaming whenever, no set schedule. But I want to keep doing it at least once a week, so I don't completely drift off from it.
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