Orange

 Finally a new one for the Color Series! 

Orange! 

I got a little cheeky with the tigers there. Blame Pantone (and people's *colorful* reactions =D)

 

Lawrence - The Philosopher

Meet Lawrence, my 8th Tealing! 

 

 

Only 4 more to go. And, good news! They're all done! The character sheets, though... are not. 

But I *will* post them all this year. Probably two a week in the next two weeks. 

I have to admit, I'm having a bit of a harder time with them, in terms of defining their characters. With most I just need to look at them and I immediately know who they are. These last four though, have been more elusive. They have names, and they certainly have personalities, it's the writing it down that I'm having problems with. It's not them, it's me, you know? Ahah. 

This week has been... well, I'm sure it has been, but I barely remember it. Life has been getting in the way of getting things done. I mean, usually it's me getting in the way of myself, so it's really frustrating when I feel good and focused and then life laughs in my face and says no, not today either.

But hey! I'm going to a D&D one shot this Wednesday, so that's nice! I hope it will be nice...  I'm both excited and dreading it, as I usually do. It's a thing I signed up for, I don't even know who else is participating. And I've also been with this constant nagging on the back of my mind, what is if I forget about it? What if Wednesday comes and I forget it's Wednesday? What if I forget I have to leave at 5PM? 
I know I won't forget, cause I have been thinking about it constantly! Chill, brain. Please.

This Christmas tree is coming out of the box today. I think. I have zero interest in get it done. Even though I think there's a good side to the tradition, to maintain a connection to the world around me, to celebrate the little things and have something to look forward to. But I don't look forward to Christmas, that's the problem. I don't hate it, I don't dread it, I just don't feel it at all. It just feels like and obligation. It does feel like to have an excuse to gather our favorite people and have a nice afternoon/night together. But we do that frequently anyway, so Christmas is just another date. 

Ok, how about this? I'm gonna try to fake it until I make it. Fake the enthusiasm - or rather, look for it deep deep down in my childhood memories - until I feel something. I do like the lights, so I'll start there, I guess, and then try to build it up some more. Sounds like a plan. Maybe I'll take a picture and show you next week!

Vivian - The Loyal

Let's pretend I didn't forget to post her yesterday, yeah?

Meet Vivian, my 7th Tealing! 

I feel like we're rushing towards the end now. Like I'm running down a cliff, my legs can barely keep up, but gravity won't let me stop or slow down. 
Basically, I feel like I'm going to crash at any moment. 

Oh, Vivian, right. Here she is! 

 

I had a busy weekend. 

It was my kid's birthday this past week and he wanted to celebrate with his friends on Saturday, in separate from the celebration with our family friends, so he could give each group the proper attention.

So, starting Friday, I was busy grocery shopping for the weekend and stressing about it. 
Saturday I was busy writing a letter (started, didn't finish) and then I was busy being in bed with a headache and nausea instead of socializing a bit with my kid and his friends that came over and I haven't even met yet (still haven't!)
Sunday I was ok, thankfully, and busy helping my mom cook for the afternoon, and then the afternoon came and I was busy socializing with our family friends until 11PM.  

It was really nice, but I'm drained. Good thing today is a holiday and everyone can have a day to settle down and rest. 

Although to be honest, I'm quite in the mood to work, cause it feels like it's been forever. And being in my space creating is my happiest place.

I've been feeling completely disconnected from the passage of time. Anyone else, too?
I know today is December 1st, but I don't feel like it at all. I still feel like I'm at the end of September or start of October. And you know what? I will not be running to catch up. 

I wonder if this is what it would feel like to be an immortal. Time loses meaning, you just keep going, day by day, week by week. The years blend together, even the months too. But you feel in no hurry to catch up cause you have all the time in the world. Of course being immortal brings the advantage and disadvantage of never aging. Advantage, cause who doesn't want to be young forever, at peak physical condition and energy levels? I sure would! But then everyone else around you gets older and older and older and then it gets weird when you don't, and eventually you have to move, change your name and start over somewhere where. Sounds like a hassle. Then again, maybe you just get used to it.

In conclusion: considering my disconnection from time, I might have started becoming immortal! 

Leopold - The Performer

Bonus post today cause I missed it on Monday. 
And also cause I want to be done with posting this series before the year ends.

Meet Leopold, the Performer! He's my 6th Tealing. We're halfway there!

 

My car broke down. Again. Ahh, the joys of only being able to afford old cars! And today is a grey and raining day, so I'm definitely not leaving the house.

My routine gets all out of wack if I can't go out in the morning for coffee (or tea, whatever), spend a little time at the café, getting my thoughts in order, and then - usually - go by the supermarket to get a few things for lunch and diner and stuff. 

If I don't go out in the morning it's like the day doesn't start, you know? It takes me forever to settle down and focus. Even if I try to emulate the routine at home, it's not the same and it doesn't work as well. I feel lost.

I might not have any work to post today. I have a Tealing done, yes, but I still have to make the character sheet that I thought was a great idea to accompany my Tealings. Ok, I still think it was a good idea, I'm just grumpy cause I still have to do it and haven't even begun to think about what to write. And I'm not feeling inspired at all... 

I have many ideas and I'm getting *nothing* done. My executive function is working as well and my car. It just won't start!